sometimes I lay
under the moon
and thank God I'm breathing
then I pray
don't take me soon
cause I am here for a reason
sometimes in my tears I drown
but I never let it get me down
so when negativity surrounds
I know some day it'll all turn around
because
all my life I've been waiting for
I've been praying for
for the people to say
that we don't wanna fight no more
they'll be no more wars
and our children will play
one day x6
it's not about
win or lose cause
we all lose
when they feed on the souls of the innocent
blood drenched pavement
keep on moving though the waters stay raging
in this maze you can lose your way (your way)
it might drive you crazy but don't let it faze you no way (no way)
sometimes in my tears I drown
but I never let it get me down
so when negativity surrounds
I know some day it'll all turn around
because
all my life I've been waiting for
I've been praying for
for the people to say
that we don't wanna fight no more
they'll be no more wars
and our children will play
one day x6
one day this all will change
treat people the same
stop with the violence
down with the hate
one day we'll all be free
and proud to be
under the same sun
singing songs of freedom like
one day x4
all my life I've been waiting for
I've been praying for
for the people to say
that we don't wanna fight no more
they'll be no more wars
and our children will play
one day (matisyahu)



i fully believe as a christian i have to set a higher standard for myself. i have worked hard to make ME better and control all aspects of my life. what did i end up with? a broken relationship with The Creator (God) and those around me. negativity ate me up and spit me out.

having found an incredible Bible preaching church was definitely life changing. although i havent had a chance to talk to the church about the changes that are currently going on in me spiritually and feel i won't get the chance to since we are moving in 3 weeks....here's my attempt at sharing the LIGHT!

yesterday, it was announced throughout the world that osama bin laden has finally been found and killed and sent out to sea. justice for those who died senselessly in the 9/11/01 attacks. i can only imagine the relief these families feel.

relief.

i can honestly say that i grieved with the nation when the planes crashed. it was a horrible day. i remember sitting at anita's house making her coffee while she dressed (i was a home nurse for awhile.) and watching the today show. i remember sitting there HOPING my uncle paul wasn't at the pentagon or near it. i remember praying for our nation that we would retaliate in a positive mannor.

what if we retaliated in a way that would REALLY make a difference? what if instead of america gathering up every arsenal available (including money our kids need for education, health insurance etc) to go ATTACK...what if we put it to use in OUR country to make US stronger.

if we KEEP cutting programs to fund our military and other negative programs, OUR country could be GREAT! i think the military is good to a point. of course we need our knights in shinning armor. but in all sincerity, from those i know in the military / families with people in the military...seems as though its the biggest hoax yet. our service men are bullying people in other countries, trying to force OUR broken system on countries that don't want it, service men overseas (and at home) cheat on their significant others, miss children being born...all in the name of peace.

i am not sure what part of ANY of this is about PEACE anymore. seems its all about who has the bigger guns/nukes/budget. if this WERE about peace, this would of ALL played out differently.

so america killed osama bin laden. what has changed?

NOTHING!

gas was $3.99/gallon here on monday. today, its $4.04. so our gas prices havent dropped. we still owe our next 10 generations of america's monies to CHINA. i still have friends that don't have jobs. i still have friends that are broken hearted. the climate is still changing in Biblical proportions. our military is still over there. babies are still born to single parents and poverty, people still dont have medical insurance. schools are still shutting down. music education is disappearing as are sports in many schools / communities. marijuana is still illegal.

it's still the SAME today but with one less buzzard around.

so why are people cheering in the streets that he's gone? if you were directly effected personally by 9/11, i COMPLETELY understand. to those of us that watched on tv and really didn't loose anyone personally....well, its not as understood.

the OLD testament says "eye for eye". the NEW testament is about LOVE, PEACE, FORGIVENESS.

people tell me i am a dreamer or idealist. maybe so.

today, i was driving home from taking noah to school. i was sitting at the main 4 corners in my town to turn and get home yet there was a car ahead of me. there was a GREEN LIGHT and an arrow for us to turn. what did the car ahead of me do? SIT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE LANE AND WAIT FOR THE CAR WITH THE REDLIGHT TO GO. ah, silly people. i prayed god would cure the stupidity of this person and open their eyes to the signs. the person decided to turn as the OTHER car that had the red light came forward. (im assuming the light for them changed.) near car accident....but 6 inches. it was close. then the person JAMS ON their brakes and skids almost into the car parked by the police station and sits there. thank goodness i was alert. i nearly hit this person. i slammed on my horn and prayed to God again. i got home safely.

i could have reacted differently and started shouting at the car ahead of me. what good would it have done? i mean, its pouring rain (according to people in my town day 18 in a row....) and no windows were down so the person couldnt hear me. so why get my blood pressure up over this?

i KNOW our country is capable of peace. i have been to places that have large amounts of people and for the most part, its peaceful. (there are always those that have to stir the gravy.)

people commented on my status on fb yesterday that i was dreaming to think we could do things peacefully. all it takes is ME getting MY heart set on Godly things. and it requires YOU to do it...and the next door neighbor, the police, our government officials. if we TRUELY were a country of PEACE, things would be COMPLETELY different then they are now. this country was founded UNDER GOD. so why are we relying on mortal, corrupt men to lead the way?

WE NEED TO STOP AND STAND UP FOR OURSELVES, CHILDREN, COUNTRY!

we need a PEACEFUL riot. we need to get OUR WORD OUT THAT KILLING ISNT THE ANSWER.

the song i have posted lyrics to and video to SPEAKS THE TRUTH.

no one wins when children's blood is spilled. no one wins when a car bomb goes off and kills a father/son/nephew/grandfather/uncle. no one wins when the treasury sends money to china to pay for goods OUR country could produce. no one wins when we PRINT more money because we are all out. no one wins when children grow to adults and can remember hearing sirens, gunfire, death.

no one wins when we CHEER CUZ WE KILLED A BASTARD.

well, i mean SOMEONE wins. but is it us? nope. the cemetary makes money when children's blood is spilled. the bomb maker gets a raise or more orders when the car bomb explodes like it should. china makes money when we send it to them. stores benefit from extra money being printed as they can mark up the cost of their goods since the dollar value went down. doctors, drug companies, hospitals, psychologists, drug dealers, bars, strip clubs, prisons, politicians make money when children grow to adults and remember the terrible things.

bin laden's group wins when we murder him because they will retaliate and now have a "heroic" story to tell THEIR children about a man that eluded the BEST GOVERNMENT IN THE WORLD.

what did the usa gain?

exactly. DIDDLY SQUAT.

i am making sure consistently to keep my heart focused on love, positive energy, light, forgiveness, peace. it is so hard. but if we can get our hearts focused on what is right, the light will come.

i am a Child of Light. i cannot stand for all the violence. i cannot justify cheering when someone is killed. they are still humans. it is still bloodshed. it is still senseless.

one day, i believe this country is destined for great things. i am VERY much doing my part to encourage others, life a peaceful life and speak the truth.

will you join matisyahu, ziggy, jesus, god, buddah, jehovah, halie selassie, ghandi, dali lama, mother teresa and others that firmly believe there should be peace? (these are in no specific order. and i left them all lower case not out of disrespect but in showing you they were PEOPLE like us. they just stood for something greater.)

i dont know about you...but i dont want to be known as a negative light. i want to share the peace i have and encourage others to bigger and better things.

who wants to help spread the light?